i've been meaning to blog since forever, but i'm too tired after all the working and studying and toiling over project (not exactly) etc etc.
so, ya.
but!
i'm back with a bang!
*slams into glass door*
i am officially free from kaplan as of last friday, 6pm.
Y to the E to the A-H-H!
MAHAHAHAAHA!
no more having to attempt to wake up at 7 (not that it ever happened after my first week of work).
no more having to stuggle with school and work (at least for this month).
OH YEAHH YEAHH YEAHH!
yup! yeahh with a double H to emphasize how glad i am to be off work.
but as much as i am glad to leave the job, i am gonna miss the people there.
they're really nice people, always offering me stuff and helping me whenever i need any.
i am also free from all fucked up project work as of monday, 6pm!
the last was slipshod work but, aiya, who cares. it's only 10marks.
at least i did my work.
lastly, i am free from messy poofy crappy hair with equally crappy fringe!
yes! i just went for a haircut and i am back, feeling fresher and hotter. HAHA!
kid in about the hot part.
but that about sums up how happy i am about finally getting to chop trim my hair, no??
i was actually bursting with excitement on monday at the thought of going for a haircut.
i think i seriously am mad. need help.
ah.
exam's coming in two weeks, but i shall rest for this week before i pick up my books.
speaking of books, i'm such a bookie.
no, not that illegal gambling person-thing.
i meant that i've been buying books nonstop.
everytime i finish one, i crave for another one.
and i have a habit of buying from the same authors.
books makes me veh veh veh veh happy worzxzxxz.
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hmmph...
blogs are no fun to read recently.
nobody really blogs happy stuff.
too much drama (sort of) had been happening recently.
at least too much for my liking.
especially those revolving around friendship.
it takes two hands to clap.
i am sure everyone knows that.
so when things starts becoming one-sided, things are bound to take a turn for the worse.
the person who makes all the effort to keep the relationship going will sooner or later get tired of doing so, especially when the other party doesnt reciprocate.
so when the other party finally realises that things no longer are the same, it may be too late for things to go back to the way they were.
i was meaning to save this for another post, but i've decided to just deal with it and get it done and over with.
so here's what i want to say to you.
tong.
i know life's been very hectic for you, with your army life, love life and all.
i know you've realised that you've been neglecting us alot, whether it's because it dawned upon you out of the blue, or because sie gave you a piece of her mind.
and i know you've tried to right things by trying to get everyone together for supper.
but guess what, from the way things turned out, i guess it sorta failed terribly.
and from what i've heard, the excuses given for the cancellation were just terrible excuses.
sure, you've got a love life. you may be confined in camp.
but it doesnt justify having to run-off halfway everytime we have a gathering.
or not turning up at all. or even not replying messages at all.
i'm sure you know how unhappy some of us are.
and frankly speaking, i am beyond the point of trying to understand the way you are behaving.
that's why i wasnt even bothered to reply raine's email.
i did not even considered going, and some of the girls were even upset about the way i am behaving, petty and unforgiving.
but that's just the way i am.
it's definitely gonna take more than just a supper, and pretending that nothing ever happened, for things to go back to the way it was.
sham.
we havent really been very close.
and i dont know if there will be a chance of that happening at all.
cus from the way i see things, we dont really mean that much to you.
that's just the way i see it.
you may not mean for it to be like that.
but i've never really seen any effort on your part to keep in touch.
heck. you dont even want to reply my smses or msgs.
come on, it's not like i will msg you guys for fun.
when i do, it's usually important stuff.
so i get really peeved when all these nonsense happen.
ok.
so maybe your phone really suck. or you were away from your computer.
but i am sure that if you want to reply, there are many other ways to do so.
as for the rest of you guys, it is likely that the above applies as well.
but it just havent came to the point where it bothered me as much.
anyway, the bottomline is:
if we dont mean as much to you as, say, your partner or AK, then just say so.
i respect your decision if you prefer to hang out with them than us.
cause this way, it will save me(us) alot of anger and heartache.
i am not even gonna quote cheryl on this, as much as she said i could, cause that's how i feel as well.
i dont know how the rest of them feel about this, so i am not speaking on behalf of anyone but myself.
they may agree, they may not.
and they may condemn me for being such a self-centered bitch, but i thought i should just get it off my chest.
better than me bitching behind your backs all the time, or trying to play the 'guess if i am talking about you or not' game.
you might not even consider yourselves candidates as the object of my rant.
heck, you may not even read this.
but at least i tried.
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ok. enough of all this shiet.
ciao~
